Perhaps...

you're wondering

why does she have such a convoluted blog address?
what in the world does it mean?

check it out:

amamas, in pidgin (the common language spoken between those who living in papua new guinea), means:

joy/gladness/delight/honor/the act of rejoicing, being joyful or content

a beautiful word with a beautiful meaning, yes?

& because i love combining words

i combined 3 words into one
because according to God, jack white, & theatre 3 is the perfect number

so?

amamas
sing
going

becomes
amamasingoing

being joyful or content, sing, & going

3 three things i pray for on this trip

that we amamas mas y mas each day
that we sing our souls to one another, connecting with each other through faith, theatre, & love
& that we presently progress ourselves, being present in the now while also moving forward

& now i presently progress myself to bed
& shall soon do so on the other side of our world

how He sings me sweet blessings & truth, awake with the Dawn & go forth,

2 days!

peace,
cyn

You Tell Me

are we really going to papua new guinea?

are we really going to be traveling there, in the air, olgeta?

are we really going to be living & breathing theatre across the world?

in less than 3 days?

less than yesterday

less than now

less and less

here

more and more

there

we feel this

they sing that

we are here now

they are there now

& really?

we are all together

"i am he as you are he as you are me and we are all together"

oh you big beautiful Universe of a God, you pour your blessings on us

us who doubt You so often

& worse us who doubt ourselves in You

doubt our beauty in You

have our struggles smoothed

our fears made calm

our hope brightened into breath

You love

You have gifted us

please, i am begging You, may this journey be one of soul contentment for all

sing us into sweet peace & communion with all

thank you for this journey

happening soon? so soon?

yes, really.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P85LoHftEKs

Negating Negativity

we leave on monday
& in my opinion
we all complain too much
except for jere & sarah
they don't really ever complain
so essentially
what complaining & grumpiness does exist
needs to at least be less common & our joyful rememberance of our purpose more prominent
despite finals stress & "packing to leave the country stress"
we all need a shift in heart & mind
because the only way any of this is ever going to work
is for us to act in love
towards each other
towards the people of papua new guinea
towards ourselves
did i mention this in rehearsal this evening?
no
i was too busy complaining ;)
5 days
start memorizing!
secure that blocking!
trust.peace.& hope

"do you wanna see the world/do you wanna see the world/do you wanna see the world in a different kinda way?"- the kooks

Xavier Rudd & Sunday Rehearsal

yes
seven days
in seven days we will be flying across that big beautiful Queen of an ocean
all the way around the world
how intoxicating!
& mesmerizing
as my last extended flight was from that one broken place called Spain
into the arms of those people i love called my family
i miss them now
i see them so rarely
& love them so much
& somehow they have patience for me
as my dear old mum says to me last night
"oh yes well you know i support you in everything you do, yet i really can't wait until all this traveling shit* is over with" (* i won't edit my words nor the ones of those around me, sorry)
& this is why i go
because there is such a world to be seen
to be felt, touched, tasted, smelled, held, experienced
because my soul belongs to nothing but hope, passion, & love
because God did not create us so that we should live in this world separately
but rather so that we might live together
unfortunately different seems to mean separate, & separatism doesn't seem to be good for anyone
so i challenge myself
& all who venture with & among me
to pursue our beautiful earth with the desire to live here, there, & everywhere
differently together
men na mari olgeta
men & women all together
"all together now" (oh it's such a wondrous Beatles song, i hope to teach it to those we meet in papua new guinea)
& another song of wonder would be xavier rudd's "the letter"
a sweetly sung soul of a song with a dash of blues truth, it's incredible!
with such lyrics as:

"& I'll write you a letter
With everything I know
About the weight of the world
& the way things could go
So live up my friend
Step back again
For some things will be given
For some you'll have to bend"

for some reason his songs on his album "food in the belly" feed my soul while i prepare for png
we, jessie, nichole, karith, sarah, stephen, whitney, jordan, emily, rhett, jere, & myself
we prepare our pieces; our lines, our blocking, our intentions, our hearts, & our purpose
i pray amidst all this preparation
we remember the Truth in WHY we're doing what we're doing
because we love God/we love theatre/we love people
we love people through theatre
through theatre we love people
rasa srinvara
always srinvara-ing
always breathing hoping & amamas-ing

for now,
moning sistas na bratas,
cyndi